Relationships

:: [[ Copied from Abby's Xanga post ]] ::


"Relationships. Love. Commitment. It seems as if these are the only things that have been on my mind today. If there is anything I have decided about men today, it has been these two things: they must be spontaneous and persistent. I'm sick of this okay, I'll call you at 9? does that work? Or how about you just call me when you are free? No, if you feel like talking to me, call me....don't wait until a "planned" hour. Don't call to ask if you can come over when you are already on your way, just stop by...I'm sick of boring, boring relationships. Especially ones that involve me having to initiate everything. I don't care what you say, it isn't my job. And if you like me, you are going to have to be persistant because, let's be honest, I am stubborn...we all know this...so if you really like me, and you really want to date me or marry me or make me fall in love with you, for goodness sake you are going to have to tell me more that more than once. There is a risk involved in persistancy, but a risk that hopefully will be worth taking. You don't get anywhere in life without taking risks so why would you get somewhere with relationships? And if there is anything I have decided today about chick flicks, it has been this: boys are right, they do set unrealistic expectations that make girls want this completely unattainable and made-up perfect guy...usually. But I think today was an exception. I went and saw Pride and Prejudice and it reaffirmed everything I have ever thought about love. Not even after Elizabeth realized that she was in love with Mr. Darcy [after he had already proposed and she shot him down] did she seek him out. She always waited for him to write to her or come visit her and profess his love to her again. And when she rejected his proposal, he didn't turn around and ask another girl like every other guy would do...he offered it again and again until she finally accepted. And then they lived happily every after.
And you can say what you want...that I am a hopeless romantic and a dreamer. But I have tasted this kind of love, and I know it is real and it is out there and hopefully it will find me one day."

Amen.

"In NY, these cops freaked out and shot this guy like 15 times b/c they thought he had a grenade. he was eating a pear!"

I think I died from laughing.
Well almost. Let me just tell you that it was darn close. I was sitting at my computer, going through my music, and came across all my old Dane Cook stuff. So I start listening to it and am chuckling and what not. So then I get the bright idea to paint my nails while I'm listening. Just chill, listen to Dane, laugh at all the absurdity, I could get used to this. So I'm sitting here painting my nails "Cherry Jubilee" right, and realize that this was a horrible horrible idea. I am going from "Would you rather drown of catch fire?" to "That tire hunted Mary down, that tire wanted Mary dead."or "Who gets killed by bees?" and even "Chicken tenders, and sweet and sour sauce all over my body." "Okay ma'am, someone get some sauce now! Come on! She wants it her way!" I couldn't breathe because I was laughing so hard. Not a good idea to handle red nail polish while laughing uncontrollably. I was about to go into cardiac arrest. And have the paramedics find me with red streaks all over the place. It was so great.

That was the high of my day. A close second was seeing Into The Blue ((Paul Walker and Jessica Alba)) which was actually surprisingly good. Better than I expected. And tomorrow I am finally seeing Pride and Prejudice, yesss! Then Kayla is having a party tomorrow night, and suddenly my life is looking a bit better now that I'm on break and I don't work till Friday. So all is well. I might try and attempt to finish my nails now... but we'll see. I'm tempted to listen tot Dane again. What can I say, he's hilarious. Granted, he swears quite a bit, but sometimes I just can't help but get a good laugh in.

I'm out of here for now. Post again soon... I know you're all dying for it

Weekend Away

Virginia is great, as expected. The trip here was definitely entertaining...poor Brian. But he dealt well with having me and Lisa in the car and even let us listen to some country. Of course, we bargained for it, so we also fit in some classic rock to appease him. And we've had quite a few intense games of ping pong, and pool, and a good time on the 4 wheeler. It's been fun, and only a day left. But I am excited to go back to church tomorrow and see a few friends, it's definitely been awhile.

Brittany's post ((----> hit her link if you haven't read her newest)) inspired me to write. So at about 2 am I wrote chapter 1 to a book I might actually try to continue. We'll see how that goes. Here, I always find time to write. At home, I feel like I have to make time. I'll try and keep up with it.

Okay, just wanted to give a quick update. I'm off to maybe watch a movie, or actually get some more sleep. Love you guys -

((I think I really like these parentheses))

Middle of the night and here I am, awake and writing my Art History paper that's due tom. I confess I could've written it two books and 6 hours ago when I first got home from the library. But alas, I got hooked and couldn't put studies before fiction. I'm an addict. They say admittance is the first step :-P

You know, I am realizing more and more that I really do have the best friends. You guys are just a-freakin-mazing. I love you to death. We may not all keep in touch and see each other as often as we would like, but just know that I still love every single one of you to pieces. I don't know what I would do without you, who I would be without you. You've made me who I am... so ultimately you're all to blame for the lousy mistakes and wrong turns in my life.... ;) I would do shout-outs, but this would be a really long post. Another time. For now, :: hugs :: I love you.

So Matthew... hs, Napoleon, golfing Matthew that a few of you know, has been so accomodating in sharing his music selection with me, and he has the amazing ability of finding new people or just undiscovered hits that should be chart toppers. (Lisa and Brittany are the same way!) And I am getting quite fond of my growing list of songs that come out of nowhere from them. So if any of you want some amazing songs... I can be generous and share :) I'll even see if I can find a few purevolume links so you can hear this stuff...

http://www.purevolume.com/aslyn: listen to Be The Girl
http://www.purevolume.com/straylightrun: Existentialism On Prom Night
http://www.purevolume.com/eisley: Lost At Sea, Telescope Eyes

Sorry kids, that's all I could find for your listening pleasure at the moment. But if you can, def check out Alissa Moreno: Next Time, Hope Partlow: Sick Inside, Dar Williams: Farewell To The Old Me and Closer To Me, and if you've never heard Sufjan Stevens- he's good too. That's my suggestion for the day. That Straylight Run song is addicting, so be prepared. Heck, they all are.

Tomorrow I leave for my dads for the weekend. No work for a few days, will probably have to take some hw with me tho cause I've been such a slacker this week. Can't be all fun and games all the time apparently. Unless I throw caution to the wind and just say screw it. But I am trying to actually take some responsibilities seriously here, at least a few. But it will be nice to go and hang out and relax. That place is addicting. Everytime I go I wonder why I left. But I love Toledo too. Everywhere you go will have quirks and things will always get boring at times, but toledo is like an old sweatshirt that just fits. Comfortable. But sometimes, change is the best option.

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Okay, I really should go write my paper. I'm such a procrastinator. I'll leave with a toast ((using my coffee mug)) :: Raise mug :: -- to getting a heck of a lot accomplished at the last minute and pulling it off with impeccable speed, managing to do it entirely too well!! Keep up the good work my fellow procrastinators. You inspire me!

((my safe harbor of memories))

I miss...

• the feeling of being able to wake up in the morning and not instantly having 50 things running through my head
• being able to read all night without "resting my eyes"
• getting snail mail
• the energy to write more
• liking my hair
• trusting who people say they are
• girls night
• driving around for no reason but to drive
• watching classic movies with Lisa
• laughing with my family
• my trampoline
• worship time
• watching felicity
• summer days without a care in the world
• out on the boat and laying on the beach...even if it was at Maumee Bay
• listening to Remix to Ignition
• frickers night
• going to bed before 1 am
• random voicemails
• swinging at the park
• not worrying about bills
• not having time go by so fast

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Something Real

Scott Speedman. The Felicity love of my life. On tuesday--Me, Brittany, and Danielle are planning on watching the 5 episode season finale. We have made it though it all and I am now anxiously awaiting to see what happens. Such a good show. I am so hooked it's insane... but you know what? I really don't care. It's the best distraction to life known to me. Felicity. It doesn't get any better than this.

I had the weirdest feeling tonight. I got home and really really missed my trampoline. This sadness just hit me because it was so clear out, and there were so many stars and I wanted to just grab a blanket and curl up out there and.... think. Life. My walk. My friends. Think about everything. My trampoline used to be my comfort place. My thinking spot. I could tune out life for a while and just clear my head. I need that again.

Last night I was up till about 5 am. I was sitting here in my basement just typing and reading and doing aimless stuff until I got tired, and then I heard something and stopped. It was starting to storm, and the wind was so strong. And then I just waited. And within minutes it started pouring down rain. I went to bed listening to the rain and the storm and eventually drifted off. And do you know what? Thinking about it now, I feel like I am caught in that moment right before the rain begins to fall. When the wind is so loud and deafening, and the leaves are all being stripped from the branches and landing in chaos all over the lawn. When the clouds look like they are about to burst and I don't quite know what to expect, but just... something. Anything. I just want to know I'm still breathing because I can't tell anymore.



(("I just want something that is real"))JZ

A Day, A Star, A Call

What a day. Babysat 7:30-5:30, went straight home and literally inhaled a piece of pizza and two breadsticks, grabbed my stuff and was back out the door for my art history midterm. It wasn't too bad tho. And for that, I was glad. So I went to Brittany's and watched Smallville. And attempted to catch up on some Felicity episodes, but after 4, I said we'd have to continue it tomorrow cause I was a goner.

On the way home I saw a shooting star. And have you ever got in the mood where one song just "fits"? I listened to one 3 minute song over and over and over and over again. And when I saw the shooting star after about the third time of hearing the perfect song of the night, it just made me smile. It was one of those nights where I felt like I wasn't really driving, and that if I kept going on the highway, I would never stop. It was a tempting thought.

I got the call of my life yesterday. Actually the night before. But yesterday it actually sank in. One of our family friends, Mr. Wilson, called and left me a message to call him back right away. You see, I had talked to him back in June about interning for a wedding photographer he knew that worked in his business complex. So after a few phone tags we finally got ahold of each other. He told me that the same guy, who also works a full time job, said the extra photography work was becoming too much for him. And he wants out of the business. Completely. He called me because he wanted to know if I would be interested in interning with him for a little bit. And then... taking over the business. This guy wants to give his business away. Equipment, clientele, the whole thing. And if I want it, Mr. Wilson can tell him I'm interested and set up a meeting. Dream job of a lifetime. In my lap. Just like that. No hesitation. I said yes. So now I have to meet him and figure out what exactly this is all about, and if I'm up to the challenge. Could life get any more interesting? I think so!! But not at the moment lol. That's the most excitement my life has seen in quite some time... heck, ever seen! Anyways, wanted to share the good news and keep you guys up to date on what happens. Pray for me. I think I'm still in shock.

And now, sleep is my top priority. And as much as I can get. But I have a lot of things to do tomorrow too... if i get around to them ;) So we'll see if I hear my alarm clock go off.....

Random Writings

Bought a new book by a new author. Laura Jensen Walker. Dreaming in Black and White. I'm only about halfway through it but it really really reminds me of the Ashely Stockingdale series... so you'll laugh out loud at times while reading, but a perfect chick lit book. Let me know if you want dibs, I'll mail it and share the fun. Start a traveling book accomodation company. lol

Straightened my hair last night and am realizing that I really do like it long, but that only holds weight because I've never had it shorter than my shoulders. Maybe I should throw caution to the wind and chop it. I babysat for my cousin Katie today. Her two kids, Stevie who's 1 and Abbi who's 2, are adorable. I can't resist their smiles and how Abbi calls me Dana because she can't pronounce my name. But Katie has curly hair, even more than my own, and she gasped when I mentioned cutting it. "You'll regret, I promise!" So I said I didn't have any real plans of following through with my appalling hack away idea anyway... I just consider it every now and then when I am sick of putting up with it and taking 45 min to straighten it. I do live such a hard life ;)

Tomorrow will be a fun day. Prayer at 7 down at the docks, class all day, then work 5:30-9:30 and home to study art history for my huge midterm thursday. And I have to take a lot pictures, develop them, and print them, all before monday. I have been slacking in my photo class, I admit it. I haven't been too thrilled with oozing creativity of late, but I just have to make myself find some motivation from those reserves I have somewhere...

Halloween was fun last night. Lots of funny kids in good costumes and hilarious adults in even better costumes. Music, food, movies, and lots of picture posing. i'll see what i can do about getting a few on here for some laughs. I was a witch from the 3 witches in Smallville. Minus the pointy hat I was decked out. Lots of dark eye makeup, black and silver shirt, jagged black skirt, fish net tights with a few holes for good measure, and knee high pointy toed boots thanks to my sister Becky. It was a blast, and lots of funny stories and memories that will last a long time. But one tip... don't see House of Wax unless you wanna see a lot of gore and psycho people. I thought I could handle quite a bit... but we're putting gore level with Texas Chain Saw Massacre... if you get my drift. Definitely good halloween movie tho, perfect for the ending of the night.

And now, well it's 12:30 am and I am freezing in my basement, drinking milk and eating oreos ((I wish they were double stuffed)), and contemplating if I would even be able to fall asleep soon. I'll prolly be up for a bit reading... and of course on aim. I've been kind of sick of it lately tho. maybe this addict will take a break here soon. Who knows. Time to end this before I just keep writing. My life isn't that interesting. Talk to you soon friends... love you!