moulin rouge

I found a new wallpaper for my computer, and I love it:

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I listened to this song at brittany's right after I got up, and now I can't stop:

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Never knew I could feel like this / Like I've never seen the sky before / Want to vanish inside your kiss / Every day I love you more and more / Listent to my heart, can you hear it sing? / Telling me to give you everything / Seasons may change, winter to spring / But I love you until the end of time

Come what may / Come what may / I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place / Suddenyl it moves with such a perfect grace / Suddenyl my life doesn't seem such a waste /It all revolves around you / And there's no mountain too high / No river too wide / Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side / Storm clouds may gather / And stars may collide / But I love you / Until the end of time

Come what may / Come what may / I will love you until my dying day

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get me out of here

I'm feeling stir crazy.

I've been chewing my nails all night. And now I sit here thinking, "I wish I could walk into my room, grab my passport, then my purse on the way out the door, and head off to somewhere...anywhere. I'm just completely unsatisified with life right now. Unhappy with circumstances, and hating the fact that I'm upset about any of it. I normally could care less, just go with the flow, lay back and not worry about a thing, enjoy life where I'm at. But I keep getting these random moments of inspiration and motivation to go... run. To change everything, and totally disrupt the life I know. Who knows what'll happen. Knowing my mind, tomorrow I'll wake up feeling back to my usual self. But if not.... if I wake up and lay in bed thinking the same thing I've been thinking for days, something's gonna have to change. Cause this is ridiculous. I can't consistently hear my heart day in and day out utter the same words.

"This is it?"

mondays news

I went to the orthodontist today. Not fun. I'm getting braces in about 2 weeks and I'm not too thrilled about the idea. I mean, yeah, the end result will be great... but having to deal with all the pain won't be fun. Oh well, I'll have to learn to deal with it.

I'm loving short hair... I took a shower and got ready in about 15 min. today. It was quite lovely. Me and Lisa have been bumming around the house just discussing life and also how as much as you love family members, sometimes you just want to strangle them too. It's been quite a day, and it's only 3:30.

I'm hoping this week, wednesday, the youth building will be done at church and we'll be able to have our first service in it. Painting that beast of a building was out of control, but it does look sweet. I'm excited about seeing kids every week again. They're so much fun. Challenging, but fun.

And now, I am going to either write or take a nap. We'll see if I get inspired soon, if not, i am crawling under my comforter for a nice afternoon nap. I know you're all jealous...

echoes

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Far past where sound has abandoned thought.
Where silence reigns over redundancy.
Where once well said is more than enough.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where words must be born to be heard.
Where speech is a gift and not a curse.
Where there is more of the unique and less of the mundane.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where meaning is rescued from noise…
Where conviction replaces thoughtless repetition…
Where what everyone is saying surrenders to what needs to be said.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where the shouting of the masses falls silent to the whisper of the one…
Where the voice of the majority submits to the voice of reason…
Where “they” do not exist; but “we” do.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where substance overthrows the superficial…
Where courage conquers compliance and conformity…
Where words do not travel farther than the person who speaks them.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.
Where I only say what I believe.
Where I only repeat what changes me.
Where empty words finally rest in peace.

I want to stand where the echoes stop.

“Be still and know that I am God…” -Psalm 46:10a

by Erwin Raphael McManus

back from the dead

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Well my faithful reading friends, I have returned for better or worse.
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I just enjoyed a full 2 hours of The Bachelor, and wow, let me just say that these girls are not messing around! They are out to draw blood and stop at literally nothing to get this guy. Unbelievable. Well, not really unbelievable I guess. Just insane. What cracks me up on this show tho is that every girl is like, "I really thought we had this... connection you know? I felt something when I was with him, like lightening striked." Oh wait tho! This was by far my favorite of the night... "When I'm with you Travis, and you look at me, it's like the whole world just melts away." Come on!! How unoriginal can you get?! They should be ashamed that they resort to that ridiculous of a level. I was ready to stick my finger down my throat, but didn't because throwing up all the chocolate hershey's kisses I had just eaten didn't sound that enticing. But it was pretty pitiful to watch. Poor girls. Of course, now I'm hooked on the drama that is unfolding and will be watching every week. I admit it, they got me, sucked me in, and I am now an avid watcher of The Bachelor. Oh well, life could be worse....
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The last two weeks I will say have been somewhat... interesting. For ONE, my mother got engaged. Crazy huh? It's funny because when she was still just dating this guy (John), me and Becky would sit with her and be like, "So when are we gonna hear wedding bells?" And she'd always say, "Girls! Stop it! We're not rushing into anything." And she'd try to sound and look all serious and stern and we would just crack up because she knew it wasn't even close to the truth. So me and Becky are continuing to discuss the sadness of our situations. Our mother had a serious b/f and a marriage proposal before both of us. Lisa is an exception. She's got good ole' Brian 'hook line and sinker'. But me and Becky... well, only time will tell ;) So come July, I'll be photographing my mothers wedding. Just fabulous isn't?

And SECOND, my grandma who lives with us had a knee replacement about a week and a half ago and I have been the live in help. My days have consisted of early rising, ice packs, short naps, making lunch, hours at the physical therapy center counting leg lifts and seeing more old people than bingo on friday night, movies, and cleaning my house for the endless stream of visitors and friends that come to check on my dear 73 year old grandma. She's amazing. And doing quite well I must say. She's been a trooper.

THIRD, I was in Virginia for a week after new years with Bee and Kayla, and let me tell you, as one of 3 girls alone in a house in the mountains, literally the middle of nowhere, we definitely know how to party! lol We lived on essentials: ice cream, toast, oreos, milk, water, popcorn, bacon, eggs and Bee whipping up some amazing dinners out of the freezer with little planning. And the days were spent... well...sleeping. lol "Sleeping all day, staying up all niiiight." Yellowcard says it the best. And when we weren't sleeping, we were reading. And when we weren't reading, we were watching movies. All in all, it was the biggest bum vacation ever known to man! We did fit in a few sight seeing days, a hike, a drive to eat at Texas Roadhouse and stop at Walmart and Books A Million (to stock up), along with pictures galore and more than a few classic quotes:

• "the fall of mankind came when guys stopped wearing short skirts and girls started"
• "don't get attached to a man whose mistress is violence"
• "guys, you're gonna laugh.... it's actually only 6 o-clock"
• "glamour shots!"
• "can I just scrape the mold off the top?"
• "could you pass the oreos?"
• "just finish that chapter... movie time is at 11."
• "you should be an interpretive dance instructor... for real."

FOURTH, I need a job, badly. FIFTH, I could use a strong dose of direction. SIXTH, I've seen Casanova, In Her Shoes, The Ringer, and Tristan and Isolde in the last 2 weeks along with countless others while at my dads with the girls. SEVENTH, this is so long of a post i can't even remember what I started off talking about. So end it I will. I miss all of you terribly and will be expecting posts on all your sites so that I can get back into my old habits of reading them and checking them... all the time.

:)