well well well

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oh boy . . .

Just thinking about writing this post makes me cringe. I mean, I want to write, but in some weird way I don't feel like giving details to fill in the gaps. I'll see what I can do :

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It is currently 2 am and altho I feel dead tired, somehow my brain is telling my body I still have energy, so maybe I do. Regardless, I have just finished cleaning out my closet, bagging old clothes and throwing some out, and am still working on laundry. I really really really needed to do all this too. It's been far too long. And the only good thing is that during all this time (since about midnight) I have been listening to good music that I haven't had time to listen to lately as well. The perks of mad cleaning make it somewhat worthwhile.

So my weeks in this past month have been spent merely surviving a crazy schedule and trying to fit other misc. events and friends into spare time that is actually quite non-existent. It's been a challenge if nothing else. And to the people I've neglected, forgive me, I don't hate you, I just have no time. But I'll work on making some so we can hang out. I miss the days spent doing nothing but vegging . . . I pray they return eventually.

I am still involved in church stuff so normally I am driving out to oregon or the ghetto at least 3 times a week if not more. Wednesday nights have become youth group from 5:30-whenever I can leave, and sundays are church in the am and pm. I still try and catch smallville and tivo'd alias at brittany's on thursday nights if I am not working, which is a highlight of the week when possible. Always good to be with friends and just relax. Eat some pizza, chug some mountain dew, stay up til we fall asleep... which these days is normally/sadly before midnight. We're getting old . . . or just too dang busy.

How about some good news tho! This summer I am already positively going to see Miranda Lambert/Phil Vassar and Rascal Flatts, taking pictures at my mom's wedding, going to Liz's wedding reception and partying down with great fun friends, making as many possible trips to Lake of the Ozarks as possible, planning on taking a road trip to VA to chill with my stepmom and dad if he'll be home, going to florida in july as a leader for a youth group trip, and basically laying in the sun every spare second of the day to soak up the lovely warmth. And maybe cheating and going tanning every now and then. But really, I have plenty to look forward to, and even tho working so much sucks a lot at the moment, I do need the money. So all in all, work is a blessing in disguise, and summer is just a straight blessing.

Okay! Well, another load of laundry is done, so gotta swap some clothes out and add some more. Then maybe I'll crash before 3. That would be absolutely lovely :) Then up at 7 for some pancakes with my grandma, a quick morning chat with my mom, and then off to work and church at 5:30. I know you all envy my schedule ;) If you actually read all this, you are a true friend and I am impressed! And Janelle if you made it this far, thanks for the update emails, I'm loving them all. Keep enjoying the time away and I'll talk to you soon. Okay kids, I'm outta here
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quick update

Whew! Just got home from the first tennis game of the year and I am tired. Not a good sign. Means it will be awhile before I am in really good shape again. But it was a lot of fun. Most of the time we laugh so hard we can't even hit the ball. Good times.

Hung out at brittany's last night finally. I've been so busy, and with her mom in the hospital, we hadn't talked or seen each other forever. So it was fun to just hang out, make random comments while watching pride and prejudice, and eating all her good food. Thankfully her mom is home and working on getting better.

Work is good, I wasn't as tired as I expected. It's definitely a lot, but I don't think it's more than I can handle. We'll see tho. Check back in a couple weeks when I'll prolly want to quit it altogether.

My dad, stepmom, and brother are all in Moab, Utah with their jeeps and I really want to be there. I could've gone but then I went and got two jobs and it wasn't gonna happen. So I'll just have to wait and ride all the trails next year. By then they'll have it all scouted out and will know all the great spots. Hopefully they remember to take lots of pictures too. They come back in another week and a half so it will be good to see my dad and stepmom again for a bit. And this summer I am definitely taking another trip to VA to visit. Maybe head to the beach for a few days . . .

Okay, I need to jump in the shower and get dressed. Church at 6 and it's already almost 4:30. Then starts another work week. Hope you're all enjoying the weekend! Much love

about to drift off . . .

Sunday night. What a weekend it has been. But actually, thoroughly enjoyable. And I feel like I could lay my head down at my computer desk and be out cold in 5 min or less. But it's a good tired. I now have 2 jobs, and this week I'm working a total of :: adds on fingers :: . . . 57 hours. Insane I know, but at the moment I need to pay a few people back, and I have the time. I still fit in church on sunday morning/night and wednesday night. So not too bad. Hopefully it will also eliminate the possibility of me using my time to spend money I don't have. The only drawback is I prolly won't see a lot of people b/c of crazy hours. But I'll trust it will work out and everything will be okay. So basically, all that to say, pray the stuffing out of me. I'll need every single word uttered.

Um, the highlight of the past week was definitely talking to janelle 3 hours after she got to england, while she was sitting in a cafe in london. Wish I was there, but sometimes life just isn't what I expect. And work has to come before play... so I'll just hold out for the free time I'll have someday. I've had quite a bit the last couple months so I don't even want to start complaining. Work is a blessing.

And now, b/c of work I've been getting up everyday. Most of the time it's before my alarm goes off at like 7:30 or 8, and I have been feeling rested rolling out of bed so that is completely wonderful. And the cup of coffee here and there does indeed help boost the caffeine levels to get me going. Bless the Lord for coffee. Some days it's a lifesaver.

Okay, I need to hit the sack pretty soon here. Maybe catch up with a few people on aim before I go. Hope everyone is doing well, I'll try and write again sometime soon. Love you all --