take a deep breath . . . and breathe

It's a weird feeling, sitting here on a Sunday night realizing I don't have anything to do but sleep and work. I smile on that knowledge alone. This is by far one of the best feelings in quite some time. It's great that such small joys in life make me happy.

Work today-- Ugh. I couldn't wait to simply drive home and unwind to the low melody of music and comfort of the dark that had settled. It felt wonderful to just lean back in my seat and imagine sitting here right now writing about nothing.

So I finally found a digital camera that I want. But of course, typical of Deanna, I choose one that will put me in the hole a few thousand dollars. We'll see if I can save a mad amount of money this next year and maybe it will become reality. I'm definitely going to try and make it to Missoula, Montana next summer for RMSP's Summer Intensive program. A June-August trip that would literally make me thrilled. I'm excited just thinking about it. We'll see . . .

So I have a new Ted Dekker book that I'm in the middle of, and I wish I could concentrate enough to make this post even semi-interesting, but I am way to determined to finish this book so I can pass it on to Becky. It's getting good, which is classic since it's close to the end. Stupid writers . . . they're way too good at what they do.

So in my departure, I will leave you with a few T.S. Eliot quotes. He was a famous writer/poet/critic/editor of the 20th century and I've been reading some of his stuff, so here ya go:

• What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.
• Poetry may make us from time to time a little more aware of the deeper, unnamed feelings which form the substratum of our being, to which we rarely penetrate; for our lives are mostly a constant evasion of ourselves.
• This love is silent.
• Poetry is not a turning loose of emotion, but an escape from emotion; it is not the expression of personality, but an escape from personality. But of course, only those who have personality and emotions know what it means to want to escape from these things.
• Poetry should help, not only to refine the language of the time, but to prevent it from changing too rapidly.
• Genuine poetry can communicate before it is understood
• We shall not cease in exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time.