I don't worry about a thing these days

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mood: cheery with some slight relaxation mixed in to make me mello
listening to: Fall - Clay Walker
ate: my grandma's amazing pancakes
to do: shop, develop pics, drop off gift, and dinner with the fam before youth tonight
weather: a little too hot but completely beautiful
wish I was: on a road trip to who knows where
I am: loving life :)
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I caught up on sleep yesterday, managed to get up and get to my ortho appt. on time this morning, and have today off to bum around and get some errands done. It's sunny and warm and the day couldn't be more perfect. Life's always a bit bumpy, but if it wasn't I'd wonder what was coming up to knock me off my feet. I miss my friends, I miss laughter, and I miss days spent doing nothing. I don't want to be a responsible adult that has no fun, I want to be 21 year old girl that loves life and enjoys every day. Responsible fits in around that doesn't it?!

I've found some new music that makes me smile, the peppy summer kind that leaves me happy after I listen to it. Music amazes me. If I could sing I'd be a music junkie... but for now I'll settle for belting along off-key in my car to the tunes ;) So I guess that just makes me a music lover that can't really participate for real.

I've run into an old friend recently... it's been good times catching up on all the lost time. Wandering walmart at 2 a.m, eating Rally's cause it's the only place open, and just talking about life. It's a weird feeling knowing someone, but not really knowing them. If that makes sense lol. I hung out with my grandma this morning for a couple hours and that made my day start off wonderfully. My grandma is amazing. She's so adorable too. We talk about anything and everything, and she asked how all my friends are doing. Not activities... mind you I tell her what they're up to, but she wants to know hardcore facts and what she can pray for, and I just wanna hug her for being such a strong influence. She's so strong, I want to be like that.

I guess it's getting late in the day already... almost 2 and I have lots to do before dinner at 5 with the family. Including some shopping! I love bargains. I'm a sucker for sales. So off I go to listen to new tunes, drive into town, and shop my little heart out. I'm looking forward to church tonight and hopefully some Brittany time [cause it's been way too long!!], then who knows.

Life is grand.

:: you're not the one for me ::

Ever have one of those awkward moments with someone-- a space, heartbeat even, where you realize this is the one place you do not want to be? I had that feeling yesterday [and all day today] and I just couldn't escape the awkwardness, the desire to flinch everytime they were near, and the very real challenge of keeping myself from grimacing at the very thought. On one hand I felt horrible, but on the other, I just wanted an escape. Any way out.
Trust me when I say it's no one that will read this, and most likely not someone you've met. It was also not a good time. *sigh*

Work has been normal, there are a couple girls that literally make me laugh til I cry and I love them. Everytime I work it's a good time :) Must get back to that as we speak actually...