Playing Catch Up

I have never enjoyed recapping weeks worth of momets because its nearly impossible. But I will make a valiant effort to write and inform the few that read this what has been going on. in my dull and never exciting life :) Get ready folks, here comes a long entry. Just remember you were *Pre-Warned*

Work has been... ah whats the word... unpleasant? That does little justice to the reality and mental picture that you can grasp from this: huge crowds of crazy minded shoppers, lines that strech down isles filled with impatient and rude customers, having to elbow my way to get to the back of the store to clock in each day, walking "stealthily" as to avoid other shoppers and still make it through the mob in record timing, people who treat me as their personal shopper, not the cashier who just takes their money and sends them on their way... out the store. Happily of course, and always with a smile on my face, kind words, and apologies of the wait. Okay, whew! Just thinking about it makes me stressed and tired. haha So no more descriptions of Wal Mart.

I had my dad's family Christmas last weekend at Maumee Bay... it was fun as always. I love my family. I got the new Jeremy Camp CD: Restored, Don't Waste Your Life by John Piper, and Desiring God by John Bevere. Also a turqouise ring that is gorgeous from my dad and stepmom. I do have a question, which I asked of a friend already but must restate for the sake of others. Have you ever had specific moments in your day that you want to just freeze and remember? Like wishing you could just always remember how you felt at that moment, what you were thinking? On Saturday, I had one. I wanted to freeze it and capture it to memory forever. Sitting in our room just talking, there was tons of food, lights and decorations everywhere, Christmas music playing softly in the background, and family. I was curled up against my dad, my head snuggled perfectly onto his shoulder, his arm fitting perfectly around me and a blanket to keep me warm... just listening to his heart beat. I closed my eyes, and just felt an overwhelming sense of... rightness. A perfect moment. Untouched, beautiful in its simplicity. I sat there with my eyes closed just thinking... this is how God holds me. This is how he comforts me. He draws me close and holds me tight and says I can stay there as long as I want. That was my frozen moment. My forever memory picture, added to my slideshow of only a few others that have captured my heart so and made me want to hold on and grasp them for all they are worth.

I had a very odd occurance within the past few days. A guy named Rob, who I worked with at Wal Mart in VA, was online and IM'd me, which he normally doesn't talk a whole lot, or open up really. Anyways, we were good friends, he's 24, and we hung a few times. He's a guy that I could've easily fallen for, but didn't let myself. Mainly because I knew I wasn't staying, but also, partly because he wouldn't even let me close to knowing him for real. Standofish, always held an arms length away. So I just let it go, and moved home, and didn't dwell on what mighta happened. But he's one of the people I miss talking to, hanging out with, just laughing with. He was a good guy. Is a good guy. So we talked, about the past 6 months, about what we had both thought, and about the fact we both missed each others company. It was awkward and hard for me at first... I am not the most forward person when it comes to my own circumstances and confrontations. I was so wary of what I might say wrong, what might come across as crazy, and if I was even making sense. But it went fairly well, and I was glad to get the inital talking out of the way. Who knows how much we'll even talk now, but it was good to just get all the stuff from before out there and be done with it all. So yes, I confronted and and I lived to tell about it! :)

As for other news, I am going to my old youth groups winter retreat next mon, tues, and wed. It will be good, it never fails to amaze me, and God shows up and changes everything. So I am excited about that, and even goit the days off work, miraculously. Well, now I am off to finish laundry that has overtaken my room, and clean a bit in my basement. Family coming for Christmas and gotta make it look spiffy. We'll see how that goes.