A Full Life

Coffee seems like the perfect ending to this day. Added warmth, some writing, some reading, some music...

Today was a good day. Lunch with friends at Max and Erma's. A movie with them. A lot of good moments that made it so enjoyable. Just having fun and relaxing and trusting that you can be yourself, sit back, and laugh at the beauty of who you are and who you know, and how much fun you have with them. Loved it.

And my stepmom came through Toledo today. She was here for a few hours. It was great. We really just have the most amazing relationship. She gave me a book, we talked about life, we caught up on whats going on, I prayed for her right before she left for Michigan, and she'll be back on Friday so we can see some more of each other. We can pick up and talk like we've seen each other every day for the past month. I love knowing that. Feeling that. Being grateful for that. :: literally 20 minutes later :: She just called me a block away from my house and was frantic because she had lost her charge card. She came back and we searched her car, and to no avail, it is gone. So I promptly showed her that its okay because she can call the 800 number and cancel her card and see if anyone's used it. She was very glad that was available, because she was definitely worried. So that is done and taken care of and she is calm once again and on her way. Now it is back to coffee drinking time.

Small dreams make dreaming a waste. If its easily attainable, why dream it? That's merely wanting something and making it happen. Dreams are amazing and something to strive for because of the fact that you have to trust that they are in God's hands. That he protects those dreams and makes them happen according to his timing and his plan. Truly dreaming is being confident that when you are fully trusting God and his sovereignty, you're dreaming the same dreams he has for you, his are just 10 times better than what we can even think up. And thats why sometimes, dreams change, or don't happen according to how we want or see them happening. Because God's best for us is more than we can imagine and dream for ourselves. Above and beyond our understanding and planning. He orchestrates for us. Puts it all together and let's it play with more divine understanding than we can ever hope to have. So dream I will!

Tomorrow is filled with searching the paper for jobs, getting an application from the hospital, getting back into the habit of doing devotions daily, trying to think of what to get my mom for mother's day, mailing a few letters, and then working at 4. I hope you are all having a good week, even tho they are hectic with school and our ever busy lives. A lil something to leave on, because it has been on my mind of late:

"It is because of the hasty and superficial conversation with God that the sense of sin is so weak and that no motives have power to help you to hate and flee from sin as you should." - A.W. Tozer

"God, I pray Thee, light these idle sticks of my life, that I may burn for Thee. Consume my life, my God, for it is Thine. I seek not a long life, but a full one, like You, Lord Jesus." - Jim Elliot