not in the mood

Lately, writing as just seemed... annoying. And I've even been avoiding aim like the plague. I've done this before, just got sick of it all and quit for awhile. But maybe one day, I'll feel like writing/typing and will just put a random post up.

I'm on the last Martyr's Song book by Ted Dekker. Seriously, this guy is incredible. These books have so much depth to them. So much more than just another fiction book. Granted, sometimes I am just looking to read and not think too much, but these books have just pulled me in and now I can't stop reading. I started the fourth one last night after I went out and bought it b/c I couldn't wait to read it. And then I read till about 4 am when my eyes were closing on me and I was still trying to read. Pathetic isn't? I really am a bookaholic. So then I just slept in today and rolled over in bed, thinking, "what should I actually get done today?" And I glanced to the floor at my right, thinking laundry would be a good idea seeing as how it's taking over my room. And definitely a shower. And then... well... guess I'll just read. Goodness, you know it's bad when you spend all your free time reading. Sometimes, days like these are what get me through though.


:: really good song, found it a bit ago, so enjoy ::

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tragic, confusing, when you slammed the door
I've never lost someone like you before
I let you go softly not even a sound
hoping that someday you'd come back around

cause I miss your sandpaper face against mine
the way you get impatient waiting in line
it doesn't matter if we don't agree
I like you even when you don't like me

and I'm lost
when you're away
lost
faded to gray

captive to words that I wish I could say
I'd never imagine I'd crumble this way
cause I thought this was where I belonged
dont leave me wondering if I was wrong

cause I'm lost
when you're away
lost
faded to gray

cause I'm lost
when you're away
lost in the shadow that you left behind
lost
faded to gray
lost in the night in the absence of light

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