Another One...

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Unspoken words
Meant to push you away
To cause you to leave
Not looking into your eyes
Wanting to ignore the pain
So evident it pours forth
Like a fountain spewing
My emotions are bursting
From a depth unknown
I try to look past it
To see the possibilities
That we could be forever
Promises made in the moment
My heart breaking
When they don’t last
Living in what might have been
Because I never wanted to ask
If you could love me
If you could overlook mistakes
Let me try to undo the lock
Fastened around my heart
From years of hurt
Unforgettable moments
Tragic loss and regrettable words
Times I don’t want to remember
But I want to get to you
The love in your eyes
Captivates me on the spot
Seeps through my skin
It flows steadily through me
I want to love you
If you’ll let me
Your expression apparent
Pulling me in without a word
Hope sparks and ignites
Sending a fire running wild
Immersed now
Without having to talk
Never having to touch me
You have captured me
Love me like this and more
For eternity

Sorry for the absence of actual posts on my life, I have just not been in the mood of late. But soon, I'll put something up for all my over eager readers lol

Bonfire

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A full moon rising
Its pale white light glowing
Stars become glassy pinpoints
Slipping through the fabric
Draped over us tonight
Chairs are gathered
Benches carried in haste
Blankets piled on willing arms
A haphazard shape constructed
Staying fairly close together
An effort to see smiling faces
And we’re all quite aware
It’s just getting underway
The fire begins to burn
Streamers of flames
Grasping to gain the sky
Embers like confetti
Raining down in display
A silence that’s well known
Comfortable and relaxed
Then some begin to move
Sticks are scrounged up
Marshmallows are opened
Chocolate is melted
Old stories get told again
And laughter comes easily
Friends and family together
Where love is undisturbed
And treasured above all
The blaze burns brighter
Continually growing in size
Distributing its effects in waves
It bathes you in brightness
Against a backdrop of night
I feel you lean close
Your lips against my ear
With whispered words of love
Settling me closer to your side
With my heart in your hands
The rumble of your voice
Imprinted in my mind
Leaving nothing to be forgotten

What Can You Do

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You know, there are days, like today, when all I really want to do is bury myself in bed and never get up. If something else could go wrong, I'm sure it still will. The day is only half done.
My car has quickly become a piece of crap. I think every warning light that could be on, has come on at some point, and now still, 3 remain. My transmission is about to blow up at any minute. I went to mail some stuff at the post office today, yeah, couldn't accelerate... AT ALL. I'm talking coasting at like 20 mph and realizing my transmission is not gonna kick in if my rpm's are already at like 6000! And still... caosting at 20 mph. So I pulled into a parking lot, turned around, and headed home after getting about a block from home. Halfway down my street... my car decides to work as tho everything is fine. Grrr. I wanted to beat it with a baseball bat. But see, the thing is, I only have myself to blame. I don't have enough money to take it somewhere and have them fix it all. And my brother is busy at work... so I am sitting at home seething. let alone the fact I needed to turn in apps today... but no. No money, and no way of getting apps turned in. Just stuck at home. Loathing today.

:: deep breath ::

My mother is home. I need to go. And I really need out of this house. Or rather, to lock myself in my room forever. This day needs to end.

The Beach

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Feeling the suns rays
Grasp me tightly in its hands
The quickness of the breeze
Dances lightly over my face
The coarse rough sand
Grates against my skin
Strident motors rumble
Reverberating in my ears
Splashes made in bliss
Coming from every age
Laughter and enjoyment
Echoing down the shoreline
Getting caught in the day
Already holding me down
The atmosphere addicting
Convincing me to remain
Waves crashing over the rocks
Attempting to attain the beach
Seagulls clambering in urgency
Willing to take what’s offered
Breathing in the lingering scent
Of tropical lotions and oils
Feeling the kiss of summer
Lightly brushing my cheek
Sensing you closer than ever
Never leaving me alone
Within my every moment
Steadily arresting my thoughts
The suns warmth is saturating
Adding to the emotion you infuse
I’m swiftly drifting asleep
Branded by the love you provide
Imagining words you’d say
Your lips pressed against my ear
Smiling as I leave content
You made today unforgettable